Twenty Somethin’ and Black Contributor Post
When I decided to do this whole lifestyle change, it was completely for the wrong reasons. I was trying to incorporate better habits, meditate, workout, make myself pray to God, and change some of my habits into better ones; all because somebody else was doing it. It was honestly putting me into a depressed state of mind. It wasn’t until I truly reevaluated myself at a new season of my life that I was able to understand what made me happy and what worked for my mind, body, and soul.
For me as a person, I realize I always have to have a reason why I do things. So one of the reasons why I found it so important to do a lifestyle change was for MYSELF.
I knew I needed to start eating better and exercising at least 3x a week for the sake of my health and weight. None of this hit me hard until late May of last year, my dad had a heart attack. When it happens, I was scared and I didn’t want to end up like that in my 50s or 60s, or even now. So now I’m on this journey for myself of losing up to a 100lbs, cooking daily, and working out at least 3x a week.
Meditating has never really worked for me unless I’ve been doing it wrong. I couldn’t find myself to do it every day because it was actually boring and I was falling asleep. I found myself only being able to really do it when I’m at church and feeling the holy spirit. So I stop forcing myself and just allow myself to get in that mood when necessary.
Praying to God is no problem for me. I just find it a problem when I’m forcing myself to come up with things to pray to him about because I’m trying to pray daily for 10mins. I was not allowing myself to feel moved in my prayers. I was repeating and I was finding myself complaining. So now, I have a goal in my prayers. I make sure that I don’t complain, and be self-centered when I’m praying.
And for the other habits that I needed to improve on like reading my bible, journaling, etc. was just things that needed to come naturally for me. I had to build on it. It was not something that I could truly force. I’m now am at a place where I’m reading a verse a day or a devotional. I’ve learned that my journaling comes from writing my captions under my Instagram post or expressing myself through writing even if it’s just for the blog. It helps me unwind, and still inspire others.
I say all this to say, other people lifestyles do not matter when you’re trying to work on your own. You’ll only find yourself unhappy, and living unhealthily because of how you think you should be doing things. Just truly live in the moment, take one day at a time, and allow God to use you in ways he sees fit.